Posted on: Friday, November 4, 2011
I believe I am in a mode of life that is in a constant state of change. Each day is a constant striving to be more full of love, compassion, mercy, justice, faithfulness, thankfulness, praise, gentleness, self-control, trust, grace, humility, patience, and joy. It would be my hope that I embody MORE of these characteristics as I grow and learn and lean on the Lord, but there is ALWAYS MORE to strive towards, and I know I will forever fall short.
Along with my every day hope to be changed and formed more into the woman of God that the Lord desire's me to be, here's a few of the "froms" and "toos"
From cinnamon roll lover... to gluten-free
From twice a week showerer... to more than that
From the "just me and God" single mentality... to boyfriended:)
From boy jeans and backward hats... to a bit more girly...
From 4:47... to 4:34
From injured... to letterman's jacket
From lover of Jesus... to more in love with Jesus
From coffee obsessed... to moderation
From Facebook... to Pinterest
From crazy driver... to grandma cautious
From lover of rain... to craver of sun
From Oregon State student... to Marketing Major
From Wildlife leader... to Young Life leader
From PAC 10... to PAC 12
From spread myself thin... to bloom where I am planted
From railroad track obsessed... to more railroad track obsessed
Posted on: Tuesday, November 1, 2011
GOAL: To bear His image, not my own. "So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them." Genesis 1:27
This might sound like a word vomit.... But this has been the specific goal pressed upon my heart for a while now. Although I set many goals with, running, relationships, school, Young Life, career, ect. I find myself gravitating back to this ultimate, unachievable, encompassing goal. This goal of bearing the image of Christ, "Christlikenss." For me, this requires a constant striving to rid me of myself, in order to better reflect Jesus. This goal tugs at me each morning to pray against bearing this image of "Audrey" that I have allowed my own selfishness to shape. To be honest, I haven't really struggled that much with wanting to be like everyone else, and I never really had a certain person that I aspired to be like. I think my struggled has always fallen more along the lines of wanting so badly to "be myself," that I lost sight of the calling to bear the image of Jesus. I find myself often trying to live up to this image of "Audrey" that I have crafted up. This tempts me to approach many situations by asking myself "what would Audrey do to better portray Audrey," rather than "what would Jesus do to better portray God." I think it is in our human nature to portray and organized, consistent personality, of ourselves. We won't do things that would defy our personality, because it makes us feel uncomfortable, and it causes other people to question. This being said, it strikes me to the core when people say stuff like "oh of course they would do that" or "I've just always been that way" as if having lost all hope of change. I want to live more outside of my comfortable Audreyness. I want to embrace the call to bear an image that constantly demands MORE of me, in order that I might be MORE like Jesus, who is far greater than I will ever be. And how do I reach towards this goal? Pray like crazy....
I honestly haven't watched TV much since my middle school years so my favorite TV shows are the outdated classics...
Anything Mary-Kate and Ashley was pretty much fair game, but Two of a Kind was my favorite
And then of course... Boy Meets World
This show (and Survivor, for like the first 5 seasons) was my weekly "show" when I was in Elementary school. I started watching it with my mom once a week on laundry night when I would help her fold. It was about this guy who got the newspaper a day early, he knew what was going to happen before it did, so he would go around saving people.
Posted on: Friday, October 21, 2011
I couldn't even let myself write a blog about what I am afraid of. That in it of itself would be handing myself over to my fears. I used to have a ring that said "fear not" on it. I had it for 4 years and lost it a good 5 or 6 times, but somehow it found it's way back to me (currently it is in the missing state). If we are in Christ, then what do we have to fear? We should not be marked by fear, or worry, or anxiousness, but by confidence in the TRUTH. Fear is a lie. Believing this lie gives power to destruction. I think the best way to tackle your fears is to view them as lies. That doesn't mean pretending as if your fears don't exist, but rather figuring out what those lies are, and trumping them with truth. Find the lie, and seek the truth.
Here are some of truths that I remind myself and pray over when the lies start to creep in.
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9
For I, the LORD your God, hold your right hand; it is I who say to you, "Fear not, I am the one who helps you." Isaiah 41:13
I will never leave you nor forsake you." So we can confidently say, "The Lord is my helper; I will not fear; what can man do to me?" Hebrews 13:5-6
And of course my favorite:)
Posted on: Thursday, October 20, 2011
The only time I have ever been out of the country was when I went to Malibu, Canada for Young Life camp. The 12 hours bus ride, 2 hour fairy ride, and 4 hour boat ride is WELL worth it. You look around and all you can see is God screaming at you through His beauty. Truly, a pocket of heaven on earth. Someday, when I don't have to run up and down the mile long boardwalk everyday, I will go back to serve there.
My family was never big into the "lounging" type vacations. Dan Botti doesn't plan trips that aren't in some form productive and require physical strenuousness. Skiing, in our family, has fit that category quite perfectly. When I was 8 we went to Aspen, Colorado and stayed in a resort on Snowmass Mountain. We would literally walk of the door, clip in, and ride. This was about the turning point where my siblings and I starting to wait for our parents at the bottom. I loved everything about Snowmass and Aspen. I always joked about taking a year of school, or after I graduate, living down there and teaching ski lessons to all the little kids and old rich geezers.
Posted on: Wednesday, October 19, 2011
This is my best friend Ellen Lekas, but I never refer to her as Ellen unless I am upset with her. I can pretty much tell you everything you need to know about her. But here are the basics some basics (filtered for public viewing purposes).
Her strongest desire is to know and love the Lord. She goes to U of O... I will never support anything about that. She is the President of her sorority, Pi Phi. No big deal:) She has a droppy lip, pear nose, and the worlds greatest wedding ring finger. The bottom of her bed under the sheets is filled with socks. She is a genuine genius, and has the resume of a champion. She loves diet coke, coffee, halls, half baked ice cream, and thin pancakes. She is also a DECA and DI champ, and she is extremely talented at making movies. She doesn't like hot tubs and she falls asleep during all movies. She never checks her voicemail, and she writes with scratchy pens (yuck). She ties her sweatshirt sideways around her body, and has permanent chaco tan lines on her feet. She is a bomb Young Life leader in Eugene, and she worked all summer as the head lifeguard intern at Creekside. She can accomplish way more in one day than any human being I know. She actually knows a lot about sports, and she understands football. One day she is going to marry one BLESSED man, and he has some high standards to meet. She has enough sweatshirts to feed the Corvallis homeless population. She works hard with all her heart at all she does. She is a hospitable, bold, trustworthy, welcoming, creative, loving, humble, serving, woman of God:)
Our friendship is pretty much the ultimate of all extreme ultimateness that ever existed. And yes I will defend that statement competitively. However, I tried to make this blog actually about her, and not BudLIFE.
It all started with a pair of slippers... and lasted through "D-day" so I'm convinced with all certainty that we will be in our 80's turnin and burnin down the backside of Mt. Bachelor and sittin' in RFC talkin bout Jesus:)
Posted on: Tuesday, October 18, 2011
STAND BY ME
(If you haven't seen this movie..."two for finchin'!")
When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we see
No I won't be afraid
No I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand, stand by me
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we see
No I won't be afraid
No I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand, stand by me
I haven't found my pennies yet
awee I forget the secret knock let me in!
why couldn't you have gotten breakfast stuff like twinkies, Pez and root beer?
Pez, cherry flavored pez. No question about it.
I brought the comb!
that's a real goucher...
sleeper hold sleeper hold no one gets out of the sleeper hold!
(I even named my chicken Vern... but he died this summer. RIP vern)
My dream came true this summer in Pioneer Square:)
Posted on: Sunday, October 16, 2011
Anything old and authentic
Tool, ruffles, flannel.
Crisp clear autumn days in Portland
Epic days at Mt. Bachelor
The simple things
My Young Life girls
the GS till the tomb
Shreddin and bombin them powder days BudLIFE
All the girls belting it in the hallway at Breakaway after the slime fight
Umm FAT GRIN:)
Posted on: Saturday, October 15, 2011
Set A Fire by Will Reagan and United PursuitThere's) No place I would rather be(There's) No place I would rather be(There's) No place I would rather beThan here in Your love here in Your love(So) Set a fire down in my soulThat I cant contain that I cant controlCause I want more of You God I want more of You
Dan: (action verb) to be always disciplined, efficient, and productive; providing "treats for all" and insisting on making people food; driving lots of miles for athletic purposes.
Cendi: (adjective) to creatively make innovative things and often give them as gifts; to encourage everyone in all good things; to make delicious desserts; and to love and pray always.
Posted on: Thursday, October 13, 2011
From the beginning I'd say we've had a pretty solid relationship... Except for the whole "love is patient" thing... I'm not so patient when it comes to deliciousness.
Psalm 86:11 "Teach me your way, LORD, that I may rely on your faithfulness; give me an UNDIVIDED HEART, that I may fear your name."
Posted on: Wednesday, October 12, 2011
"Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your strength, and with all your mind." Luke 10:27
This is my goal and the deepest desire of my heart, to have an UNDIVIDED HEART that is completely devoted to the Lord above all else. To love Him as my first and forever love, and to love Him with ALL of me and in ALL my ways. It's no competition for my heart, the Lord has already won it completely, and so I completely surrender it to His leading. To me, having an undivided heart means striving to allow my heart's desires to fall in line the the Lord's. It means continually testing my motives against His will. It means living out His heart to a world that tries to steal mine. It means living in communion with one another, as one body, and one heart. It means bearing each others burdens and sharing each others joys. In Romans 15:5-6 it says, "May the God who gives endurance and encouragement give you the same attitude of mind toward each other that Christ Jesus had, so that with one heart and mouth you may glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ," and in Jeremiah 32:39 "I will give them singleness of heart and action." It means loving one another together in the same way the Christ first loved us, and pouring out that love to those who need to know it. It means allowing the Lord to renew my often deceitful heart, and allowing Him to guard it and guide it. Proverbs 4:23 says "Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life." With our hearts we love, and with our love we live. 1 Corinthians 13:2 humbly reminds me, "and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing." I AM NOTHING without love, and whatever I do means nothing unless it is done in love. So it is my strongest desire to live undoubtedly devoted with my whole heart to glorify my Father, and to allow His spirit to dwell in me and make me whole. I could go on and on praising Him for this wholeness of heart that He renews in me, despite my stubborn childlike tendency to allow my heart to wander. I pray that you would captivate my heart always more and more Lord, that my heart would be more and more undividedly for you.
"I will give them an undivided heart and put a new spirit in them; I will remove from them their heart of stone and give them a heart of flesh." Ezekiel 11:19
"I am saying this for your own good, not to restrict you, but that you may live in a right way in undivided devotion to the Lord." 1 Corinthians 7:35
Posted on: Tuesday, October 11, 2011
More often then not I go by Auj. Hence the "Auj Poj" in the link to my blog, which is a hodgepodge of Auj. I'm a hodgepodgey type a girl.
1. I love and live for Jesus with all my heart, soul, mind and strength.
2. You don't really know me unless you know of my love for railroad tracks and my lack of showers.
3. I don't think anyone could be more passionate about their favorite movie than I am about "Stand By Me," sincerely...
4. I write all over my hands and arms, often. But I will never get a tattoo.
5. My bed headboard is a barn door that I built with my Grandpa.
6. I've been to every Warren Miller movie premier since I was like 5.
7. My best friend and I call each other "bud" and we live a budLIFE.
8. I still sleep with a teddy bear and his name is "Bear." Yes, that's more original than "Teddy"...
9. I RACE cross country and track at Oregon State.
10. I lead Young Life at Corvallis High School
11. I live in a house with 7 girls, 4 chickens, and a chinchilla.
12. I throw my shoes on wires.
13. I'm dating this boy whose kinda cute...
14 I've never had a sip of alcohol in my life.
15. I run a lot, spit a lot, eat a lot, spill a lot, write a lot, pee a lot, sing a lot, pray a lot.
Been lagging on the bloggin since summer, so I decided to get myself rollin again with one of these good ol "challenges," which hopefully will be more of an outlet than a challenge.
Day 1: Introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts
Day 2: Meaning behind your blog name
Day 3: Your first love
Day 4: Your parents
Day 5: A song to match your mood
Day 6: A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 7: Favorite movies
Day 8: A favorite picture of your best friend
Day 9: A place you've traveled to
Day 10: Something you're afraid of
Day 11: Favorite tv shows
Day 12: Something you don't leave the house without
Day 13: Goals
Day 14: A picture of you last year - how have you changed?
Day 15: Bible verse
Day 16: Dream house
Day 17: Something you're looking forward to
Day 18: Favorite Place to Eat
Day 19: Something you miss
Day 20: Nicknames
Day 21: Favorite Picture of yourself ALL TIME. Why?
Day 22: What's in your purse?
Day 23: Favorite Memory
Day 24: Something you've learned
Day 25: Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs
Day 26: Your Dream Wedding
Day 27: Original Photo of the city you live in
Day 28: Something that stresses you out
Day 29: 3 Wishes
Day 30: a picture of yourself this day and 5 good things that happened since you started the challenge